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  • Writer's pictureKate Flynn

On Finding My Voice

Updated: Mar 17

Those of you that have known me for a while are probably pretty aware of my backstory. To those of you that have recently found me, I’ll offer the cliff notes version.


I’ve been on the path of self-discovery for around the last 17 years, endeavoring to live as my most authentic self and sharing what I’ve learned along the way. My intuition opened. I became a channel. I downloaded an entire system for healing, wrote a book about it, drew several sets of meditation cards, recorded dozens of meditations, and created several other major bodies of work along the way.


Ever so carefully, I kept my voice, my stories, my thoughts, and my opinions out of what I created. I thought my purpose was to share knowledge and that’s what I did. Free of personality, storytelling, or perspective, I created a body of work that, with a few exceptions (you know who you are and I hope you know how grateful I am) was largely inaccessible and unrelatable.


In 2019 and with one last push I created a masterclass for relationships. I recorded the videos, put everything into a pretty little package, and convinced myself that this time would be different. It wasn’t.


And then, COVID happened. I completely gave up and checked out. Somewhere along the line I remember saying, “All I really want to do is yoga and play tennis.” And that’s what I did. While there is a lot of judgment around giving up, sometimes that is exactly what needs to happen.


My cup of everything I knew to be true was overflowing. Had I kept going in that direction, I never would have been available for Human Design. Because I had fully surrendered to knowing that what I was doing wasn’t working, I was able to empty that cup and open to other possibilities.


This led to radical change. We sold everything and moved to Ecuador. We settled into life in Cuenca, a beautiful colonial city, with a thriving expat population. We made friends.




One of those friends introduced me to Destiny Cards. I am curious by nature and played along. I entered my birth date and was told my card of destiny is the 3 of Clubs, the Writer’s Card:


“The creativity in this card can manifest in many ways. On the high side, these people can be highly successful writers, teachers or performers. On the low side, they can worry and spend their time on frivolous activities and never reach their full potential. Success in life always depends upon the individual and how they use their God-given gifts and abilities. The Three of Clubs is gifted but their fear of poverty may entice them into using their creativity in questionable ways. If this happens, they seldom get away with it. They make great salespeople and propagandists but they are ineffective until they decide upon one philosophy and stand behind it. They are sure to have emotional losses, many of which are destined. If they see them as "completions” that lead them to a higher level, they avoid disappointment. If they use their inheritance of spiritual knowledge, much success can be realized.”


I knew all about life on the low side.


Funnily enough, even with everything I had written, I’d never really considered myself a writer.


Shortly after this, we were invited to a celebration of the anniversary of the apparitions of Mother Mary in Cajas National Park by a friend of ours with firsthand knowledge of the apparitions and a life-changing experience as a result of them.


The Cajas is an other-worldly place. At around 12,000 feet above sea level, it was a cold and rainy day. They prayed the rosary, said a mass, and ended with the stations of the cross.




We get to the end of the ceremony and we are guided to open our hearts to prayerfully receive a personalized message from God.


Immediately I hear, “You are a writer that doesn’t write."


We had just turned our lives completely upside down and it didn’t feel like there was a solid piece of ground stand on.


I had no idea what to do with the message I received. So, I put it in my proverbial back pocket, hoping I would remember it when the timing was right.


Almost three years later, I find myself reflecting on the removal of my own voice from the majority of everything I’ve ever written or created. I previously thought that was what I was supposed to do. That was the high vibrational thing to do—keep myself out of the work I was being given to share with the world.


Now, I see that it was part of my conditioning. Be small. Don’t take up too much space. Don’t use too many words. I have no idea where this came from. I can’t pinpoint it to any particular event or experience. Thankfully, I don’t have to, I can simply reclaim my power from it.


And that’s exactly what I am beginning to do. I am a storyteller. It’s in my Human Design chart and it is my card of destiny. Beyond all of that, and perhaps most importantly, it resonates deeply with me. It may be clumsy in the beginning, but that’s OK. I don’t have to figure anything out. All I have to do is begin.


Whenever the past comes up in my dreams, it is often sticky. I have a hard time discerning fact from fiction and returning to reality.


This morning was different though.


There was a huge celebration in my honor. There were many faces in the crowd I recognized. A few were the cause of previous stickiness, some had been present in the past to see me fail, others had loved me from the beginning. But they were all there at that moment to show me how far I’ve come. And that felt pretty damned good.


I’m leveling up. I can feel it. I am coming into a new level of comfort within my own skin.

All of that to say, “Welcome to my Blog!”


This is where I”ll be sharing personal stories regarding authenticity, self-love, Human Design, unbecoming, healing, and trusting that all the answers we seek already lie within.


Is there any topic in particular that you would like to hear me cover? If so let me know!


Next week I’ll be sharing a 3 year update on my Human Design experiment, see you then.


Stay tuned for more exciting announcements coming soon!

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Tammy Cormier
Tammy Cormier
Mar 18

I'm so happy for you Kate. This feels like a really great path you are on. I'm really looking forward to your blogs. I so admire you and how you put yourself out there. Love and hugs!

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Tricia Charron-Hakenson
Tricia Charron-Hakenson
Mar 18

WOW Kate! That was so moving! Thank you for humbly sharing your "cliff notes" journey. Only recently getting to know you, yet I see such wisdom and integrity within you. You have much to offer Kate, and I am both honored and blessed to partake in your next chapter.

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Kate Flynn
Kate Flynn
Mar 20
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Thank you, Tammy! Love and hugs back to you💞

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Farrah McDaniel
Farrah McDaniel
Mar 17

Thank you for sharing!

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