I Was Pissed...

After Reading Eckart Tolle's, A New Earth: Awakening to your Life Purpose, and the subsequent initiation of my spiritual awakening, I fell asleep in the third dimension fully prepared—not to mention, expecting—to wake up in the land of cupcakes and unicorns.

I was "spiritual" now. Surely, above the anger and pettiness of my former self. Call me naive, call me whatever you want, that's where I was.

​Needless to say, that's not how it worked out.

​Ultimately, I awoken, and rather rudely I might add, in the Land of What the F$%!.

Perhaps, you've been there too? I was blind-sided by the past and the unfinished business it contained. The Guilt. The Emotional Trauma. The mistakes.

​All of it rose to the surface like scum on the top of a dirty pond, demanding to be acknowledged, healed, cleaned up, and released. I knew that it would swallow me whole and spit me out in pieces, if I let it. 

​Great. Now what? At that point I could see why so many choose to stay asleep. Once you know, you can't un-know. Once you cross over into the realm of awareness, there is no turning back.

​Apparently, what "they" say is true. Ignorance really is bliss.

​But, it won't sustain you. It won't move you beyond your warm, safe cocoon, no matter how terrible albeit comfortable it may be, and prepare you for life as a butterfly. It sure is tempting to stay there though.

If you're on the fence, think long and hard about moving forward. Or, is it, think long, think wrong? You'll have to decide for yourself. 

​Figuring out hot to not get eaten became my number one priority. As it turned out, there was a universal plan unbeknownst to me that was about to be revealed.

Redemption came in the form of Mary Jane.

No, not that Mary Jane. The Mary Jane that strangely requested to see me over the doctor she was scheduled to see. Why or how she came to that choice is still a mystery. She was following a voice that I couldn't hear and, at that time, couldn't even conceive. 

​Mary Jane came into my life, an Earthly angel, unknowingly charged with helping me get my bearings in this new and unfamiliar land. Not that she was without resistance, mind you. We have each taken our turn over the years, encouraging the other to keep putting one foot in front and move forward. 

​Long story short, I began asking God, The Universe, Source, the Magical Fairy Dust that Connects Us All as One, whatever you want to call It, a LOT of Questions. And, she answered.

"Dear God, make me a channel of your healing works in my world. Guide my thoughts, my words, my actions. Tell me what to say. Tell me what to do."

Activate Ascension is the culmination of all those answers. 

I like to think of it as a philosophy. You can think of it as a roadmap to buried treasure. Follow it and you may just find your authentic self. 

​Whatever it is, or whatever you call it, it's helped me beyond measure. It's helped me to understand why I'm here and what this crazy life is all about. I'd share those answers with you now, but they're too simple. The mind hates simple. We love making things complicated. 

​A little distraction is all it takes. Give your mind something to focus on or think about—a visualization, technique, or meditation—and it will happily follow along. Meanwhile, your body will do what it's known to do all long, but was never put in the driver's seat long enough to make happen. 

All of this to say, if you're here looking for warm fuzzies and wanting someone to tell you that: It's all going to be OK, you don't have to change, it will be easy, or that everyone else is the problem...

Move Along. Now. Quickly.

Go back to your warm and safe cocoon. Go back to Facebook and Netflix. It's too dangerous to move forward. Play it safe and stay with what you know. Make peace with the old cliche, it is what it is. Wither and die before you give yourself permission to find out what you're made of and fully live. 

Sounds a Bit Harsh, I Know. But, the truth of the matter is...

Spiritual growth and awakening is hard. Not because it has to be, but because we make it that way. Could be that it's human nature. Could be that the voice of our fears and our resistance is so loud that it drowns out that still, small voice within.

​Whatever the case my be, I'm not here to blow smoke up your rear and I refuse to go down on the sinking ship with you. Your friends may do that. I'm not your friend. Not yet, anyway. Who knows? You may be super cool and we might camp or hike or kayak together sometime in the future. But, for now, I will be your Mary Jane.

I will throw you a lifesaver and do whatever I can to stop you from drowning. 

​I will hold the space for you to make the hard choices.

​I will show you that just because that's the way it's always been, doesn't mean that's the way it always has to be.

​I will teach you that it's actually easier to move through your emotions than it is to avoid them. More often than not, it's more useful to rip off the bandaid in one fell swoop than to drag it out over a lifetime.

​I am here to empower. I am here to help you shatter the status quo and create an outrageously joyful, prosperous, and healthy life. 

Activate Ascension was born from the same place as most great things—desperation. 

It is a method. A process. A roadmap. A light in the dark.

You can use it on your own or we can work together. Which would you prefer?